Life as told by God

Life as told by God

Lamentations 3:25-36
God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits,
to the woman who diligently seeks.
It's a good thing to quietly hope,
quietly hope for help from God.
It's a good thing when you're young
to stick it out through the hard times.
When life is heavy and hard to take,
go off by yourself. Enter the silence.
Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions:
Wait for hope to appear.
Don't run from trouble. Take it full-face.
The "worst" is never the worst.
Why? Because the Master won't ever
walk out and fail to return.
If he works severely, he also works tenderly.
His stockpiles of loyal love are immense.
He takes no pleasure in making life hard,
in throwing roadblocks in the way:
Stomping down hard
on luckless prisoners,
Refusing justice to victims
in the court of High God,
Tampering with evidence—
the Master does not approve of such things.

(The Message Bible)

I do believe that life is a completely orchestrated by a living God that works though his creation. I also believe that we as people as humans are interestingly enough most of the times taken back when we have moments of doubt of fear and of unbelief.
My story starts in Miami fl where I grew up and have not left! Never been on a plane never have touched snow never even seen the inside of a airport more than three times. Haven’t had much understanding of the world around me because it ends where I don’t need to be. My world has always ended where I reach a place of limits and restrictions and places where since in my mind I didn’t need to be I didn’t go. Sheltered life for lack of a better word. I grew with all women in my family and me being the first born male I kind of had a touch of swag to my life. Understood the woman psyche I understand the frailty of a woman son of a single mom, grandson to a single grandma and with no father in sight low expectations were a given. I searched for outlets to my low testosterone fueled life in sports and football and women. But sometime in a land almost distant from time itself God found me, hiding from him. At that moment God single handedly rescued me cleaned me washed me and destroyed every false concept I had on reality and shattered every idol I had made of myself and branded me with his identity.

I am reminded of a story of a solider that fought for a army that was invading a smaller defenseless country. The man who was a warrior from birth fought as his father and many before him did. One day in the heat of battle he was captured. The people he has sworn to kill were now holding his life in their hands. They instantly dragged him to the enmy camp and broke his legs. Unable to walk they stripped him naked and blindfolded him. They placed him in a wagon and took him to far off village. The man was defenseless broken and blind, taken captive and placed in a position that he was uncertain whether he would live or die. The man was placed in a tent and was nursed back to heath while there he saw the destruction that his people had upon their enemies land and saw the horrors he had committed. With no way to run back to his camp and no way to not see what he had done he screamed in pain at night and slept during the day daily thinking of what he had done. This was worse than war he thought seeing his sin and being treated so mercifully by these people he had killed.
One day as he looked at himself he was fully recovered he was allowed to leave the community that had shown him true life. At that moment he chose to remain with them and live among them.

I lived the best life I could. That was the point, I lived a life that only fulfilled MY deepest desires a life that would leave me empty. I understood this all from choices I made to people I chose to let in. fatherless abandoned selfish hateful spiteful rebellious sinner that wanted nothing but to watch the world burn because I had been a self mutilated pyro. I read this scripture in lamentations and allowed the holy spirit to teach me and help indulge in what God is saying.

God says it is good that we stick it out though hard times. Now why would a loving peaceful Jesus flavored idea of God we have, that enjoys us in comfortable position with the world say this? Well because he isn’t what we always think he is God is also a purifier of gold and silver and he can use just about anything. I know, He used me. And I wasn’t Gold when he found me I was most likely dirty copper or a rusted can and he is making me into a royal diadem according to (Isaiah 62:3)
How about that? The womanizing lustful ego maniac is now with his legs broken blind to the things of this world and is taken to place where the only way he will survive is if he trusts in the one true living God in Zion. And why im so sure that I can trust him when my legs are broken? Because he will return. Why did the disciples preach as if Jesus was coming back tomorrow? Because he said he was coming back.
God doesn’t approve of treating people with hate and contempt< he has allowed you to go through what you have gone though that you may show mercy and compassion on the hurting. I’ve been almost homeless broke hungry and unloved banished and broken rejected abused and treated like a foreigner because those are the exact people God wants me to reach for his purpose. Jesus suffered that we may suffer and do it well as his spirit allows us to see people that need him. I talk to people all the time that remind of me of the old me and look and wish I could break their legs and bring them back to the village but I need to remember that’s Gods job not mineJ
“"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." -MLK Jr.

Just a thought how God loved you lets love each other and maybe somebody will fall in love with who you love
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